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Greetings Earthlings,

A unique hashtag has been exploding the internet: #bisexualmenexist. Something about this hashtags in the era of Donald Trump's rhetoric struck a chord of creativity in me. The existence of this hashtag reveals something that is not being pointed out in the rallies, marches, and happy gatherings we see reposted on social media.

#bisexualmenexist, I suppose, was intended to create a haven for the bi unicorns (or vampires) that are still trying to manifest themselves in a post-"Love is love" America. So, I have decided to step down from my rooftop with endless mimosas (temporarily) to make an overdue proposal for my bi brethren, and bi sistren, who still can't seem to get a break in 2020.

I propose a complete, permanent social divorce of the letter "B" from "LGBTQ"—an acronym born to fight oppression--yes, but overcrowded in the effort and not equipped to honor the scope of bisexuality and thereby not the safest place for bi folks.

Issues with associating bisexual within LGBTQ:

  1. One-size fits all mentality (super straight, super gay or transgender—creating muddied conversations about sexuality and gender identity that should be separated)

  2. Erasure of bi narratives that contrast monosexual mainstream messages, specifically mostly straight bisexuals and bisexual that exist outside of queer spaces.

  3. Bullying people to "blend in," "come out," "decide," "grow up"

  4. Misrepresentation, and misclassification on a macro and micro social level. Using the word "bisexual" interchangeably with "gay" and "queer" or as synonyms. This deters bi people from speaking up and also erases their identification.

If you do a reverse Google keyword search on the term: bisexual people (yes, I'm the nerd to do reverse searches), you may break out into a hysterical laugh-scream from what you already know to be accurate or you may weep at the results.

Hundreds of millions of people appear to be searching "how to meet bisexual people." Other search results are "how many people are bisexual," and of course, "why do people hate bisexual people."

Question: How do hundreds of millions of people who appear to exist in Google coexist with a trending hashtag about their non-existence and feel misrepresented about their experiences? In a world of dating apps where you can micro-target every preference, every lifestyle, every quirk – what gives?

The public is slowly contemplating alternative reasons for their unhappiness. People are more precise about the dynamic nature of their associations, preferences, lifestyle interests, wellness, and yes-sexual aches, and quicker to call BS. The temperature of the social-psycho-sexual bi disconnect appears to be rising by the year as hundreds of millions of keyboard soldiers get fed up with old storylines and selective prioritization.


Two Suns - Inescapable Light

It's important to know that I've known I was bi at the age of 12 or 13. This is before I had the word for it and before I touched another body. Experiences in the adulthood have just solicited my reality as a bi person.

Many bi people will tell you (those that existed as teens); a same-sex itch emerges at some point during development; they think they are gay, the opposite-sex itch does not disappear. In essence, a bisexual may go through two adolescences. If puberty is awakening, I will describe the bi-state as light at the end of a gloomy tunnel covered in dripping stalactites, suddenly being illuminated. As one approaches the source of the light to explore, they discover the glow is dichotomous—two suns at the end of a tunnel. In its purest sense, let's call these sources divine masculine and divine feminine energies.

A popular narrative is that a bi person is "indecisiveness between men and women." Or, the idea of "preference." Who do you prefer is the first question a bi person may hear dare they admit their bisexuality. Both attitudes grossly lack understanding, on a qualitative level, of how a mind concludes they are not straight and not gay. Those that sell these narratives or simply don't understand, in fact, indirectly acknowledge that attractiveness, interest, fantasies, and crushes can be perceived but should be suppressed to appear decisive.

A prepubescent virginal bi teen struggles to understand and thereby manage female and male "light" from sheer sensory overload, lack of vocabulary, and lack of appropriately coded stories. Crushes are rampant and debilitating as a teen may struggle to establish lines between crushes, friendships, bonds, and hormones. The internal dialogue of being bi is tormenting itself without delving into sexual relationships. These are qualitative differences that I understand to be different than straight and gay experiences.

Imagine—your straight male friends want to talk about girls all day - normal. Your gay friends talk to girls about other boys all day - normal. And then there is you - bewildered, deer in headlights - with interests and nuances beyond ordinary understanding. Dare you agree with your straight friends and gay friends simultaneously, a middle school scandal would ensue. I can still recall the onset of juvenile attraction and the brightness of these lights. The social experiments to see if what I was experiencing was real. The vowing to myself to avoid stereotypically attractive people at all costs to reduce internal stress and later realizing that you can never escape. There is something distinctly beautiful about every single person on earth--their heart, their mind, yes - their body, if only to be discovered. This was my experience growing up.


I was able to read a few comments on some of the #bisexualmenexist postings before I remembered why I don't do such things. A man wrote that he obsessed over his sexuality for years and had never dated anyone because of what he perceived to be the awkwardness of his being and fear of rejection, not only from straight women but from gay men. He felt too straight to be gay, and because he had same-sex attractions, he was sure he was not straight.

At 38 years old, sex with a woman did not occur for him. The fear of being emasculated by a woman felt debilitating. He decided that being gay would be easier, although he did not fully identify with the popular portrayal of gay life. Additionally, his gay friends told him that his desire for women would fade the less he thought about women. His friends assured him that being bi did not exist, and if he were sexually interested in a man, he was gay. Perhaps you see what I see, but if you don't, I will ask – (1) is the value of women solely one of sex? (2) what kind of friends are these? (3) what are the long term effects of suppression?

Some men proceed to animate their gender expression to ensure people perceive them as gay as not to expose their emotional wounds. These choices inadvertently darken this man's inner world as they don't appear to be made from a conscious place, or are they in alignment with how he feels in his heart.


A prepubescent, virginal bi teen experiences sensory overload somewhere in a darkened cave. He does not identify with stereotypical flamboyance. He may decide that a straight "lifestyle" is more comfortable for the dynamics of his life and more likely to result in sex with women. This man may animate his gender expression to ensure he is not perceived as "gay" by being openly homophobic, and overstating how many women he has had sex, or wishes to have sex with. These choices inadvertently darken this man's inner world and don't appear to come from a conscious place, nor are they in alignment with how he feels in his heart.


According to GLAAD's inclusion report of 2018 & 2019, Director of Entertainment Research, Megan Townsend stated that "television still has work to do when it comes to telling our [bi] stories overall with nuance and depth beyond shallow stereotypes or problematic tropes….Bisexual+ women far outnumber bisexual+ men on every platform."

Maybe you are familiar with these common storylines that are used to shock viewers:

  1. A married woman permits her "gay" husband to have a boyfriend outside of the marriage. Or the married woman in a loving, monogamous relationship discovers her straight husband has a "secret" boyfriend or discovers he has been watching same-sex adult films.

  2. Lesbian suddenly leaves her long-term girlfriend to start a family with a man cutting off all contact.

  3. Gay man falls deeply in love with his female best friend.

  4. Secretly gay man abandons his wife and kids to be with his long, lost same-sex lover.

  5. A man or woman experiment with the same-sex during college, choose to be straight, and their same-sex romance reappears in a supermarket line causing internal distress about their decision to be straight.

Pop culture codes these stories as "gay" for the man, and "erratic bisexual" or "straight" for the woman. While the representation of bi women has gained speed and been synonymized with sex positivity, bisexual narratives for men remain inaccessible. Their invisibility apparent. The reality show Love Is Blind attempted to show a bisexual man disclosing his bisexuality to his female fiance, which quickly escalated to name-calling and tears.

To trained ears and eyes, a confident bi person would see through these narratives and one-sidedness, and maybe like me, scoff at the producers of these images.